As I mentioned in my last blog, the Lord has been teaching me things. So many things that it’s hard to keep track of the changes. It’s a beautiful, humbling place.
I want to give you a run-down of what the Lord has been teaching me and perhaps it will be of some encouragement.
I’ll just jump right in to the nitty gritty…
Through conflict and people’s hurtful words, I have been able to see the ways I’ve grown. I am not who I once was. God has healed parts of me that I didn’t know were hurt. Through experiencing His love, my responses have changed. I am more secure and settled in who I am. I am more confident in my strengths.
Through having more time on my hands (CGA kept me so busy), I’ve been able to see ways that I can use my time more effectively. Last week, a friend told me of his realization that he has no one to blame but himself for any mistakes that happen. He was specifically talking about the goals he wants to accomplish. If he doesn’t accomplish them, that’s on him. The same is obviously true for all of us, but with this newfound realization, how will our lives change? How I spend my time shows where my values are. What I value ultimately determines the direction of my life.
Through really good, close friends, I am seeing even more what it looks like to be chosen. It’s been so powerful to have friendships deepen in this season. It’s challenged all of my paradigms and shown me so much about myself and about God.
Through going on some dates, I’ve realized blindspots I have. I’ve realized some tendencies and templates I have to see the world. And I’ve seen some wonderful ways I’ve grown and matured. I am on the right path and it’s an encouraging feeling.
Through forgiveness, I have seen redemption play out beautifully in my life. It leaves me in awe. It’s shocking, inspiring and one of the most humbling things for me.
Through failure at my job, I’ve realized that I can’t rely on myself to do everything. I need help and I really need to learn how to ask for it. I am learning what it looks like to allow others into a mess (it’s especially vulnerable if I made the mess).
Through success at my job, I’ve learned to trust myself. I can be proud of myself knowing that I did what was necessary to solve a problem.
Through specific people in my life, I am currently learning what it looks like to be loved by my Heavenly Father. I didn’t know that I needed healing until I heard a word from the Lord and it stung. Like rubbing alcohol on a cut. I need His healing and He is using some people around me (whether they know it or not) to share His love and bring about wholeness.
There are so many other things wrapped in the pages of my journal and I would love to talk about more. Let me know if this hit home or if you want to know more specifics on the ways the Lord is moving in my everyday life.
Thank you for being on this journey with me.
